Sunday, April 26, 2015

Just veg out. Lay like broccoli

After the crash and burn of my last relationship (Read all about it here ), I decided to give in to some much needed veg out time. Veg out = Relaxation. Or in the words of Julia Roberts, Be like vegetables, lay like broccoli. And OMG did it feel good.

                                                  I gave a big hallelujah to the weekend:


                                                             ordered myself a pizza:

 

                                                   Watched me some Criminal Minds:



                 Can we just take a second to appreciate all that is Derek Morgan (a.k.a. Shemar Moore):


                                                         Ok, just one more second:

 
And browsed Pinterest for some bathroom décor ideas:
 
 
 
Which was also where I found this amazing tank top, that was seriously just meant to be. Serendipity at it's finest:
 
 
 
 
I'll keep you updated on the progress of my bathroom decoration and shopping purchases. But all in all, I say that this weekend was a total success. Time well spent. It's always time well spent when you give yourself permission to do the things in life that you really want to do :)
 
How was your weekend?
Until next time. XOXO
 
 
 
 
 

Saturday, April 4, 2015

I may do a lot of stupid shit...

It's been 8 months since my last post and I've been living my life. I've been having a lot of amazing times with some fabulous people. I've enjoyed my life and completely slacked off on tending to this blog. There have been so many good moments that are just too much to share. However, with the good also comes the bad. I've unfortunately experienced some not so great moments as well.

I apologize for my absence. I honestly thought that I was done with the blog. It had a good run and it was fun while it lasted but it started to take a toll on me. But something lead me back. I've had a rough couple of days and I feel like this is my place to come to when I need to get something off my chest. My safe place. So, here I am.

If you're wondering what lead me back here, I think it can be summed up in one word, loss.
I've lost something, someone actually, and have a heavy heart. Yes.... this is a man I'm talking about.

He entered my life as a friend about 9 years ago. He supposedly always had a crush on me (so he says). We lost contact over the years and had a few missed connections but a few months ago he came back. Totally took me by surprise. I wasn't sure if it was a rekindled friendship or something more. Then sparks began to fly. I was hesitant at first. There were so many red flags that we both stopped counting. I just knew that I still wanted to be around him. He made me laugh, made me feel special, made me feel wanted, made me feel comfortable and dare I say safe (which is something that rarely happens with me). He was becoming one of my best friends with the bonus of amazing physical chemistry and connection. Then he broke my heart.

I'm not exactly sure what went wrong. But I know we crashed and went down in flames. And that it sucks. The hard part is not knowing what the fuck happened. Communication failure for sure. He has issues and isn't perfect. I know I'm no angel. I can be difficult. I don't trust a lot of people. I can put my foot in my mouth and I can overreact and analyze every little thing. I can be whiney and cranky. I'm hesitant to try new things but at least I try.

My heart is full and I mean well. I smile while falling on my face and laugh when I pick myself up. I'm not perfect. I can admit my faults and say 'I'm sorry' when I'm wrong or even when I don't think I'm wrong but I know that I have somehow hurt the ones that I care about.

I guess I just don't know how to turn it off. How am I not supposed to check my phone to see if he's called or texted? How am I not supposed to wonder how the meeting with the boss went? How am I not supposed to think about him when I hear certain songs? How am I supposed to just stop watching 'our shows'? How am I supposed to not think of him when someone says something that reminds me of one of our inside jokes? How am I supposed to just forget about him?

I honestly don't know "How" or "Why" a lot of things right now but I do know that I'm sad and I feel the loss. And that's ok. It just means that I care.



                                                Until next time. XOXO

Monday, August 4, 2014

Total Groupies

One of my besties just turned the big 2-9. We celebrated the kickoff to the last year in her twenties with a concert. Not just any concert, a Goo Goo Doll concert. Don't judge me. If you're an avid reader of my blog, you should very well know that the Dolls are just one of the 10 things that I'm grateful for in this life. They're so good live, I can't even stand it! We saw them with Daughtry, who was also really good. (He's funny too). Crush alert! I have a thing for musicians, what can I say?

 
Amanda and I. #BathroomSelfie 
 
 
Super excited for the performance and our homemade band tees. Yes, we are THOSE girls.
 
 
It was both of our first times at the Greek Amphitheater. It definitely didn't disappoint. It was an intimate outdoor venue. The weather was just right. Overall it was pretty perfect.
I couldn't ask for a better night. There was booze, the band, and my bestie.
 
Happy Birthday Amanda! I love you sista!
XOXO
 
Have you been to any concerts this summer? Please comment and share below.

Monday, July 21, 2014

Tinder Diaries - Part 3 Feeling totally Clueless


If you read last week's post, you probably noticed that I dropped the bomb that I have decided to quit Tinder. As promised here are the reasons why. It's simple really, I seemed to have stumbled across two types of guys: The random gone missing type and The stage 5 clinger weirdo freak. Like my title descriptions? Don't believe me? Let me refresh your memory with the spontaneous combustion that was Alex. After Alex, there was:

Crossfit guy who texted me daily pictures of his Target purchases. I love Tar-J and all but who goes there that much?! I don't need to see that you're buying new socks. Especially when you should be buying me dinner. Drinks would be ideal in this situation to find said pictures moderately entertaining.
 
After Crossfit guy, there was Lion guy. Lion guy texted me YouTube videos of lions. Yes, lions. Why he did this, I have no idea. He just came back from a Safari? Was he planning to go on a Safari? He has an extreme lion fetish? I became confused. The only thing I could think was lions and tigers and bears, oh my!
 
 
Lion guy led to Hungry guy. Hungry guy would text me asking if he should order pizza. I'm an extreme carb lover so my vote is always going to be yes when it comes to pizza. Turns out Hungry guy wasn't in the mood for pizza. Hungry guy wasn't in the mood for a sandwich, pasta, or any of my suggestions for that matter. Thai food was the object of Hungry guys desire. Now that we got that settled, I had to break the news that I was not in fact the delivery service number for Thai food. After the great food debate with Hungry guy, I figured he must have been:
 
 
Hungry guy led to Video guy. This one really freaked out my friends. He would send videos instead of text messages. Videos of him playing the guitar, Videos of him walking and talking, Videos of him explaining why the last video he tried to make didn't end up working out to his liking. I should also mention that Video guy was on a lone camping trip in the wilderness and also sent me videos of him chopping wood.
 
 
After the freakiness of Video guy I felt impotent and out of control, which Cher Horowitz and I really hate. I decided to give it one last shot and that's when I stumbled across Stage five Clinger guy. Stage five Clinger was in Remission from Cancer. 5 years cancer free! Wohoo! But he had chronic pain causing him to depend on pain medication. At first he led me to believe that he was a positive, silver lining type that was trying to get a new procedure that would enable him to go back to work as a police officer. In reality he didn't have a job, was heavily medicated, slept all day, missed his doctor's appointments, and had pictures that were 5 years old on his profile. Not to mention that he called and texted me about 75-125 times a day.
 
 
Stage five Clinger guy really left me feeling sad and icky. I mean:
 
 
None of these guys and I made it on an actual date. I just couldn't go through with any of them face to face because:
 
 
That being said. Searching for a guy on Tinder is as useless as searching for meaning in a Pauly Shore movie.
 
Has dating in this day and age made everyone totally clueless? I'd love to hear your thoughts. Comment below!
XOXO
 

Saturday, July 19, 2014

Cupcakes for Kylie Auction update

If you all remember I took part in a live auction supporting Cupcakes for Kylie. I am happy to update that the auction raised $14,217.36 for baby Kylie and her family :) Thank you to all who helped get the word out and to all who participated! I'm filing this one under "Success".  Thanks again all!

 
 If you would like to follow up on brave baby warrior Kylie, check out the family's Facebook page.
                                                                         XOXO

Friday, July 11, 2014

Week in Review

I apologize for slacking off on blogging this past week but in my defense, I was one busy girl! So let me catch you up on what's been going on with this weekly round up:

I spent the 4th of July at my best friend, Sara's new house. She had a family style BBQ. (Well, she had it catered) buuuut, she did cook a bunch of yummy appetizers and desserts herself. It was a great time with a great group. We capped off the night with a few rounds of margarita pong. Like beer pong but we upgraded with margaritas. It was just like old times, with the added bonus of fireworks in the background. My only complaint was the poppers being used as a tactic of distraction. Ultimately they worked! My teams lost every round.

                            
Best part of the night was when I finally convinced Sara's husband John to turn on some Classic Rock. "Pour some sugar on me" turned into a movie montage of "Flashdance". Priceless:


I spent part of my 3 day weekend working on my line. I'm happy to say that my mission to find the perfect tank top has been completed. I've found the most fabulous flowy racerback tanks that are oh so soft. They are exactly what I was looking for. And so, my tank top line has officially come to life!

 
    My Hamsa tank tops are $19 each and are available for purchase via my etsy shop: StarrJoy16.
Use coupon code: BLOGLOVER at checkout to receive 15% off your entire purchase through                        the month of July. More designs are coming to the shop very soon!

On Sunday I had my second NET session. What is NET you might ask? It's defined as a mind-body technique that uses a methodology of finding and removing neurological imbalances related to the physiology of unresolved stress.
Have you ever heard of the technique of putting your arm out and having someone push lightly down on your arm while you resist the push? The pushing and resisting is being done while you say statements. Your body reacts differently depending on if your body really believes the statement that's being said to be true. Example: "My name is Starr". My resistance would be strong because I in fact believe that my name is Starr (even though it's a weird name). "I love getting speeding tickets" would cause my arm to easily be pushed down because I in fact do not like getting speeding tickets. See how cool it is? Think of it kind of like a lie detector. I've found out some interesting things about myself so far. I will share with a follow-up post!

After NET I felt energized and fabulous. I headed to lunch with my girl Amanda. Cocktails anyone?


Monday night was standard bachelorette night. The cuts are coming hard and fast. Andi started the episode with four suitors and only three remained. I must say this is the best group of guys I think I've ever seen on this show.
There's Nick the mysterious asshole type and Josh the hot baseball player:

 
 
On the sweet side we have Chris the tractor loving farmer and Marcus the take my breath away romantic:
 
 
I'm not gonna lie, I see Andi choosing baseball Josh. I think they fit the best together and can totally see her with him. As for Chris and/or Marcus I can totally see either one of them with ME! *Sigh* I'm just sayin' a girl can dream right?
 
Since we're talking about love and romance and whatnot, I think I should tell you that I did it. Yes friends, I quit Tinder. I know, I know. But after the disastrous installment of the Tinder diaries part 1 and the hideous follow-up Tinder diaries part 2, I was left feeling discouraged and icky. I will follow up on this soon and give you more details as to the build up of what caused me to delete Tinder. Fret not though, I haven't sworn off internet/phone app/whatever dating altogether! You will still be able to follow up on my interesting (for lack of better word) dating life. C'mon friends don't leave friends hanging. You'll still be able to catch up on the latest. Hip hip hooray! Until next time!
               
                                                                               XOXO


Friday, July 4, 2014

Happy 4th of July!

Happy 4th of July from StarrJoy16.  Take 16% off of everything in my shop as part of the celebration! Room décor, Jewelry, baby onesies, and adult tanks included :)
Use coupon code: STRIPES16 at checkout!

Hope your day is filled with hot dogs, fireworks, laughter with loved ones, and of course alcohol!

                                                                       XOXO