When people get you down and disappoint you in such ways, sometimes it's hard to see the writing on the wall. No matter how clearly written it is, even if it's screaming at you in the face, it can be hard to take those rose colored glasses off and see it for what it is. Denial ain't just a river in Egypt, folks.
They say ignorance is bliss, but is it? I don't really think anyone is capable of living in La-La land long term. It's like they say about San Francisco, it's a nice place to visit, but I wouldn't want to live there! (Which is what I realized myself after living in San Francisco for a short period)....
Anyway, back to this topic....
I'm coming up on 2 years since MY whole Sandra Bullock/Jesse James type of life changing moment. 2 years since I was forced to see the writing on the wall. 2 years since I admitted to myself that my life would never be the same and everything that I knew from that moment on had changed. 2 years since I've changed.
Looking back now and seeing how much I've grown and seeing how much has changed (for the better) I am so grateful. Don't get me wrong, it's been a very hard journey but all of the bad ridiculousness that I went through to get to this point that I am at now has been totally and completely worth it. The hardest part of it all though, it was taking off those rose colored glasses that I had gotten so comfortable wearing and was so used to. Removing them was so foreign. Now that they're gone, I can't imagine it any other way.
If you are going through something in life that you are having trouble facing, I encourage you to follow your heart (that sucker beats louder than anything else I've ever heard, making it almost impossible to ignore). See things and people for what and who they really are and most importantly read the writing on the wall.
XOXO
THANK YOU FOR THIS!! <3 ITS A DAY BY DAY LEARNING LESSON.. EACH HOUR, EACH MIN... TAKING THOSE AS SMALL VICTORIES!! YOU'VE TAUGHT ME THAT AND NOW IM REGAINING MY STRENGTH!
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